thirst like no other

i struggle a bit with deciding how transparent to be. however...it hasn't killed anyone yet, so i'm going to go for it.

i had a serious preconceived idea about what would happen when i arrived in cairo. i truly believed that all the pieces would fall into place, as they have thus far, and that i would hit the ground running.
as it turned out, that didn't happened. jet lag was unbelievable, my stomach acted up immediately, and the L-rd decided He wanted to fix my heart. i came here with such pride, believing i was ready to do whatever He said. perhaps i was willing...but certainly not ready.
G-d provided an amazing couple with an amazing history and amazing wisdom (amazing!) to help prayerfully guide me thru the things the L-rd wanted to say. the L-rd spoke truth into my life in a powerful way. my perspective is different and my confidence truly is found in Him. what an amazing G-d we serve...He so brilliantly orchestrated the people and the time and the series of events HE wanted.

i'm reading a book right now called "the relentless tenderness of J-sus" by brennan manning. here is a clip from the forward by dr. larry crabb:
my journey has taken me recently into the desert. it's hot and i'm thirsty. but all i've been able to see is burning sand stretching out all the way to the horizon. with no water in sight, thirst had nearly given way to resignation. i've been trying to call it trust.
i've been here before. there's a pattern. when i put down my shovel, when i quit trying to figure out what i must to do find the water, a well seems to bubble up.
radical Chr-stianity. the real thing. an upending encounter with J-sus that changes everything. experiencing His love. letting the Lion tear away every false hope. riding the Lamb all the way home.

is that not incredible?

He is here. He is real. He is moving. He is speaking. He is powerful. He is awe-inspiring. He is consuming. He is good. He is holy. He is faithful. He is just. He is everywhere. He is in control. He is the victory.